All for the love of my Angel Babies
Welcome to Loving Angel Babies!
I decided to start this organization after my fourth miscarriage, in honor of my precious angel babies.
Hold up! Let’s rewind to the beginning….
A little history before we dig in. I am 28 years old, married (to the best guy in the world might I add), had 5 miscarriages and both fallopian tubes removed. Ouch!
December 22, 2011, my life changed forever.
It was my very first miscarriage and boy was it a complete surprise! I rushed to the emergency room because of some very serve cramps during my menstrual cycle, so I thought! After being admitted, having my blood drawn and being hooked up to this machine I thought surely, I’m dying! It NEVER crossed my mind I could be pregnant, although I wasn’t on any form of birth control (what an idiot.HA!). Anyways,
After the doctor came in and said “So did they tell you?” I replied, “Um tell me what?” He said, with such enthusiasm, “YOU’RE PREGNANT!” I was freakin’ speechless. Like, I couldn’t even believe he just said that!
Yesterday I was enjoying bottomless mimosas and now I’m pregnant! I was 22 years old, unexpectedly pregnant and married to someone elses husband (yall will catch that later) like WTH? Then he said “But that much blood during a pregnancy is not normal, looks like a miscarriage“. What a jerk! I was an expecting mother for all of 2 seconds and now I’m not, way to go doc. Anyways, so that was that.
Now lets fast forward to July 7, 2014
I was pregnant AGAIN, SURPRISE!! I thought surely this was it! The last pregnancy was just a fluke. It was the wrong time and wrong donor, everything happens for a reason right? My husband and I (boyfriend at time) were so happy! Then all of a sudden
BAM! Miscarriage number two! Then followed miscarriage number three October 22, 2015
Then my body decided, okay these miscarriages are boring, WTH let’s cause more hell and turn it into an ectopic pregnancy instead! Yay!!
Miscarriage number four March 2, 2016, this little one decided to park in my left fallopian tube.
I was told I had suffered a miscarriage 3 days after my positive pregnancy test, on Valentine’s Day. Luckily, I listened to my body and due to previous miscarriages, something was just not right about this one.
Two weeks had gone by and I still had very strong symptoms. Finally, I called my doctor and requested another ultrasound to confirm I’d lost my baby.
The sonographer said “Nope honey, you’ve already miscarriage. You can’t be pregnant, there is nothing in your uterus.” I said “Well I don’t know what’s going on but I still feel pregnant!” she turned up to the left and there it was. A little fetus who had made himself right at home in my tube. She said frantically, “Oh my God! Honey, you have an ectopic pregnancy.” Again, I thought surely, I’m going to die!
After being rushed into emergency surgery, I decided then that I needed to break the silence of miscarriage. I needed to be the voice for all of the women who are afraid to speak up. I felt like I’d endured so much pain and agony that comes with miscarriages, that I could not longer bury it inside.
Miscarriage is a life event that sometimes occurs within the pregnancy journey. We cannot control it therefore, we should not be embarrassed by it but embrace it!
Though this journey has been rough, I am forever grateful for it. I know that it may sound crazy but God has given me such power, such strength and such grace to carry on. I’ve learned more about myself and became a better person through this process.
Loving Angel Babies is place where we all support women who’ve endured loss and/or infertility. Feel free to leave a comment and share your story.
–Dee, Mommy of 4 Angel Babies
Galatians 6:9 Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.
Hello world, I’m back!
Here’s a little update on my love story. Life has managed to give a me another addition to my angels…
MISCARRIAGE NUMBER 5!!!
In the same breath, I’m also completely infertile due to the loss of my last fallopian tube :(. August 30th, I was rushed to the emergency room due to the rupturing of my fallopian tube. Although I now have no tubes, and 5 angel babies, I still believe that God has a divine plan for my life.
Be on the lookout for my IVF journey!
-Mommy of 5 Angel Babies